Life After college.
It is been almost 18 months @ IBM and we all have entered in a new year , I spent few minutes of my HIMYM time to think about what I have achieved in these months (Basically I don't have anything prolific to do at home so I spend most of my time doing these useless things). Initially I thought I will be done with this excercise till my TP starts, but when I started contemplating about it, it took hours to complete and in the mid of this meditation some surprising things shaded in and confronted me. Earlier I had done the same excercise when I was freshly came out of college and thought of my accomplishments, I must say I was in high spirits about my attainments and I had a shaded picture of myself which always stood besides me showing me a thumbs up, saying you nailed it bro. But the same image was jeering while standing in front of me. This ugly thought stuck to me when the list of things I lost superseded the list of things I achieved.
In the month of June'08 it was all win-win for me as I did complete my graduation satisfactorily, having TCS job in my pocket and made handsome money from the internship and then a long wait for the joining of TCS had started. No sooner had the idle phase started than I had given up sleeping for 12 hours and decided to do something meaningful which would kill my time. All the thoughts were circumducting: Studies, Job, Long trips etc. I mulled over this for a couple of weeks and chose to go with the job till the joining. I had applied to few BPOs and decided to take on some of the interviews. As soon as I reached the companies for the interview, second thoughts used to struck my mind. Just to kill the time you can't do something which is of no use to you. Amidst these thoughts I always made a point by going to the interviews, indirectly killing the time. [Target achieved] But those second thoughts actually
helped me to understand what I am supposed to do with my life, it gave me a complete new direction of thinking and I was zeroed on what to do with my life
[BPO Interviews: Achievement#1]
When I was done with the thought of what to do with life, the thought of being idle was killing me then one fine day my friend had asked me to apply for a job in IBM ISL, which I had gotten after couple of technical interviews then I had to make the toughest call of choosing one between three words abbrs, ISL - TCS. My brain was with ISL but heart always pushed me to brood over TCS, though I could not see, it was a Hobson's choice, I had to stay in Pune for various reasons. So finally I went with ISL.
[Hit the bull's-eye : Achievement#2]
and the actual life after college had started. The Professional life - The Dirty Job, which I had always been told as the clumsy part of life where everybody is ever ready to bamboozle the others. In all likelihood it turned out to be A Blessing In Disguise for me, here I met some new folks who have already imprinted their part in my life's story book, I met with one of the best friends of my life, I have learnt many new things which I never dreamt of, everyday I get to meet new people, I get to work on the new technologies which every engineer is meant to do. This company taught me to THINK. The best thing I have learnt at IBM is constantly ask yourself "Are you making a difference ?". This way of thinking has completely changed me as a person.
[IBM - Achievement#3]
When this IBM phase of my life was budding, till then I was always been accompanied with the best friend of my life who was there with me in thick and thin. Things always don't work out the way you want, but that irreversible loss had to happen. I have come a long way since then but as I said earlier it was irreversible, so I could not do much to make it better, but certainly that was the biggest loss of life.
[Loss # 1]
As the time never waits for anybody, life and we follow same footsteps. Earlier In schooling you were always with your friends sharing all of your best time. When it comes to friendship there were no formalities, you had never taken anything personally if your friend throws any rubbish at you but now everything is taken aback. Even a small cheezy joke tears your stance in your own group. When we never had mobiles with us, a single loud shout was enough to reach to your beloved ones but now with all the technology supporting you, there is no direct accessibility, every Monday mail threads will keep rolling to book the coming weekend. You will get an appointment of a Bhojpoori Superstar but friend's appointment, keep dreaming. Everybody is Dropping Like Flies in to this routine including me. But somewhere in the mind this thing stings, but as I said earlier life moves on, does not stop for anybody, This will also keep moving the way it is.
[Innocence in Friendship: Loss #2].
There are many important events happened in life, as an when they came and marked their apperance and went on. When I reconuted all the achievements and losses, figuratively speaking certainly number of achievements were more than the number of losses, but the losses happened are irrevocable, nothing under this sky will ever replace them in my life. They have their own prominent places in my life but I am happy with what I am.
I don't regret about my past, neither I feel bad about it. I always look forward to make things better.
My mind is still churning to write more things, but for now I will bid a GOOD BYE.
